This Fall ROCKS!!!

Going to see Brianna this coming weekend!!

Allison and Apple Festival next weekend!!

Fall Break the next weekend!!!

UNC Charlotte Open House/Birthday Celebration's with Allison the 22nd!!!!

Does it get any better???  

Now if I can make it past all the tests and papers due in the next 3 weeks

So I'm a senior now...kinda scary....everyone left me...except for my Smith Smith. Who woulda thought we would be the ones that made it all four years here together! I heart her. The years not so bad...I'm nervous about graduating...still haven't decided if I want to go to work when I graduate or go to grad school...

EXAM WEEK= HELL WEEK

So exam week has officially begun  I had 2 exams today and I have 2 more left....I am so ready for them to be over so Christmas Break can began  I dont really feel like studying right now, I havent updated in awhile and  I feel like ranting about stupid people so here goes....

I dont understand why people act one way part of the time and another way the next....be yourself all the time...you are who you are dont act differently to try and impress people in the long run it ends up making you look fake....like a jackass...this applies to guys and girls alike..i dont hate...hahaha...i just dont understand why you would want to pretend to be something your not...it has to be hard trying to be someone else...so what if people dont like you...screw them...be yourself ...why would you want someone to be friends with the fake you anyway....people kill me...enough about that

Another thing i dont understand is why people who are old enough to stand up for themselves cant...dont get someone else to do your dirty work....do what you have to do....do what works for you again if people dont understand/like you for how you feel SCREW THEM.....It doesnt make sense to me why at 20 something you would think you feel the need to let other people talk for you because your afraid if you say how you really feel they wont wanna be your friend anymore..PATHETIC....thats so high school...grow up get some balls and get over it.....

I also dont understand why people always wanna put words in my mouth i never said then everybody else wanna come at me asking me why i said this and why i said that...I DIDNT....talk to me about it....dont acuse me of something you didnt hear for yourself....some people will say and do anything to make themselves look better than everyone else...even if that means makin up shit....ask me about it and i will tell you exactly what happend...I dont lie...thats bullshit...you wanna know something ask...ill tell you even if it hurts your feelings...i want people to be truthful to me but if i cant be truthful to them i cant expect them to do the same for me....

While Im ranting about things I dont understand let me say this...I HATE LIERS....Im not stupid...dont try an play me...i dont work like that.....you want someone that will sit back and listen to your lies while you walk all over them...find someone else....i wont take it from ANYONE...

As far as guys are concerned...dont sit there and tell me the same shit you tell all your other girls....thats bullshit...i wont take that either.....if you want me give up your hos....if you want your hos dont bother talking to me.....i dont play like that either....you think you cool talkin that bullshit....im not stupid i know you was tellin some other lil ho the same shit the other night....also dont lie to me...tell me up front how you feel...odds are i feel exactly the same way but instead of talkin to me bout it you start makin assumptions....again i say BULLSHIT.....talk to me ask me dont just assume im like all tha other hos you been with before...odds are if you took the chance to talk to me bout it you would see that you were completly wrong about what you thought....but instead of talkin to me bout it you wanna assume you know everything...HAHAHAHAHA yeah okay

well i reckon thats enough for tonight....gotta study for exams now

WOW its been a LONG time since i wrote anything...

So i totally dont understand men...i mean they are so confusing....one day everything is perfect..it seems like things could work out and that maybe everything you have heard about them was totally wrong and that they are going to be everything you've always wanted yet never had...then the next day its back to the same old jackass they were the last time....so do you give them a second chance or do you completely ignore them and run....ahhh...i dont know i mean we have so much history together and at times things can be so perfect but there are so many obstacles in the way... i'm just afraid of being hurt again and i cant go through with that again....not now....not with school....i mean last time i thought things were goin to be good then all the sudden it all goes to hell...then after i had finally gotten him outta my mind he up and calls to see how im doing...tells me he drives past my work and wonders how i am....then we start talking and start hangin out and i get all excited thinkin things are gonna be different then in one night it all goes to hell again...WTF...what am i supposed to do....i dont know i want things to work...i wanna give it time and see what happens...i dont wanna ruin things but im afraid im going to....i just dont know

Anyway enough with boys...school is good this semester...i have a's in all my classed except for one so thats good i think its the first time that i have had such good grades at midterm...i have actually been studious this semester...for the most part i like my classes and my professors....i cant believe i am in my 3rd year of college...time has flown by...its so crazy....but i am so ready to be done with it all...i mean i love it here and wouldnt trade it for anything but i am so tired of always studying...i cant wait for the time when i dont have to worry about passing a test or writing a paper....when i can go home every night and do whatever i want to do....

So in 4 days i will be 21!!!! i cant wait...i think on my birthday we are all going to Raleigh and i think Brianna and Lauren may come and join us  that would make me so happy i havent seen those two in a long time and im definitely going through some withdrawals...then this weekend i think me and amber might go out one night and then me and sonja and amanda and hopefully christy may all go out...im so excited...i cant wait....

anyway i believe i have rambled enough and i most definitely have some work i need to be doing.....